By the way, MonteLDS, have you considered how manipulative you are? Consider the following:
MonteLDS wrote:Things with Jennifer and I are mixed up right now. She said as we were out yesterday that she feels unsure if she had made the right choice or if prehaps that she is just feeling bad for having to put me threw such pain... So she is trying to figure things out. I am giving her, her space.
One or two days after she breaks up with you, you jump back in, go to see her and propose marriage. This is giving her space?!? Moreover, you apparently go about doing this by whining and crying to demonstrate how much "pain" she has put you through. That's good. Make her feel bad for "hurting you". Guilt her into marrying you. That's an excellent plan. Guilt is always a truly strong foundation for a long and happy relationship.
In addition, Jen didn't cause you this pain. You caused it yourself. If on any of the countless occasions in the past that Jen has told you "no" you had taken it like a man and walked away, accepting that the mutual attraction wasn't there and that you just weren't meant to be a couple, then you wouldn't be in all this "pain" now. Don't blame Jen, this mess is your own making. Take a little responsibility for your actions.
MonteLDS wrote:While I have faith and look forward to work more with her on our relationship.
her? Your relationship
? Nothing you have posted yet shows any mutual work on this so-called "relationship". It has all been about you trying to push her into loving you. And at this point that has gone far beyond simply putting your best foot forward and into the creepy realm of you manipulating her emotions to make her embrace you. Furthermore, unless by "relationship" you mean following her around like a lonely puppy, then you don't have a relationship. At least not an adult relationship. I guess what you really meant to say was that you look forward to desparately hanging on to her and playing her emotions in an attempt to pressure her into "loving" you.
MonteLDS wrote:As I countine to love her unconditionaly. As any one should do when they truly love someone.
How big of you.
Translation: As you continue to fixate on her and come ever closer to crossing the line into stalking. Unconditional love is not the same thing as obsession. And if you truly loved her and she doesn't return the feeling, you would let her go because of
your love. Why would you want to make someone you profess to "truly love" miserable by pursuing her when she so clearly does not wish to be pursued? Only a selfish person interested in his own feelings would behave that way.
Jennifer has showed and told you countless times that she really doesn't want to be with you. But you can't or won't see that. I suggest you go back and take a look at the video you shot of the two of you at the amusement park. To a disinterested observer, one glance at that video makes it perfectly clear that she is uncomfortable around you. Frankly, it appears that she is a little embarrassed to be with you. Maybe now that a little time has passed you can look at that video and see the same.
Wake up and smell the coffee, MonteLDS. You don't really love Jen, she certainly doesn't love you, and you aren't the pure and innocent nice guy who has been hurt by love that you think you are. You are manipulative, selfish, immature, and obsessive. Walk away from Jen and this unhealthy "relationship" before anyone really gets hurt, take some time off from women altogether, and get some professional help.
If you really stop, do some honest introspection, and take action to correct your faults, then maybe you really will become the good guy you like to portray yourself as. And then you will be able to find a woman who you truly love and who truly loves you. You are young, and have plenty of time. Use it to your advantage rather than wasting it on neurotic exercises in prolonged misery and destruction.
Even harsher yet but still meant in a constructive way,